The other one

This is a poem I wrote about 2 years ago, back when I had a girlfriend. The first part is kind of between me and her and God I guess. I was struggling with my sinful nature; the things I did even though I didn't want to and I knew it. The second part is from me to her. We were in a long distance relationship but I was madly in love with her. As a poem I see that it has a very simple rhyme scheme. But I think it has meter, at least it does in my head when I read it. anyway, I hope you like it, here it is:

The other one

Part one

When I say “I” what do I mean?

There’s more to me than what you’ve seen

There’s part of me that’s good and clean

But deep inside there lies a fiend

To make me screw up is his aim

He’ll stop at nothing in his game

For what he does, I feel the shame

But we are one so I’m to blame

The other one, my polar inner

Takes my hand, makes me the sinner

He takes my will and wears it thinner

God, please spare this wretched sinner.

The guilt is more than I can bear

My eyes fixed in a desperate stare

“Oh God,” I cry, “it isn’t fair!

That I with him my soul must share.”

God, I grant you my permission

Kill the other, perform the fission

His death will give me new ambition

I’ll live life to fulfill your vision

Part two

When I say “you” what do I mean?

The fairest beauty I’ve ever seen

A soul that’s pure, a heart that’s clean

The greatest love that’s ever been

Aflame your skin it curves and shines

Your lips are like the reddest wines

When without you, my heart pines

With all the love of valentine’s

Inside my ribcage roars a fire

That I could fly, this I desire

I’d flap my arms and never tire

To be with you, who I admire

To guide my roaming starlit flight

You’d wear a dress of silver white

Toward all hope, toward the light

I journey to you shining bright

Ah, I hope you didn't think that it sucked. Perhaps it's one of the many crappy poems I've got to write to get to that perfect one.